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[goodknightdaddy]

...What?

[ehnnui]

I touched you. I started it. So it's-- not your fault.

[he wants to keep going, make excuses like he wasn't really aware of himself either, but isn't that disgusting? isn't that giving away things that will change the way Keirean tolerates him?

...not that admitting this much isn't going to do that already. but he couldn't stand it, Keirean's guilt.]

[goodknightdaddy]

.....?

[That hardly makes sense either though. He sits on the edge of the bed, looking at Kamukura.]

Why?

[Why matters a lot right now.]

[ehnnui]

...

[it's fucking over.]

I did not realize it was you.

[goodknightdaddy]

[...Maybe he misunderstood when Kamukura said he was interested in him before? Or maybe like Keirean Kamukura was remembering a lover. Though he seems somewhat young for it he's not too young for that to be possible.]

...Did you think I was a former lover perhaps?

[ehnnui]

I...

[he doesn't want to lie? it's accurate in a technical sense. even transactional sex partners are often called lovers. but it feels wrong, to tell this man he loves something like that.]

...It wouldn't have mattered who it was, except that it was you.

[goodknightdaddy]

....

What?

[There's only a faint frown line between his brows on his otherwise emotionless face but the fingers curling white knuckled in the sheets tell a bit more than his expression or voice give away.]

[ehnnui]

I... would not be in bed with someone who had not already had that and more from me. In any other circumstance. So I was not thinking.

[goodknightdaddy]

[He didn't take Kamukura for a playboy. He still doesn't. That wording is off in a lot of ways.]

Are you that used to it?

[ehnnui]

Of course. I'm not known for my social graces.

[there is a lot being implied there and he's juuust. letting it hang. the cat's already crawling out of the bag, may as well let it.]

[goodknightdaddy]

What are you known for?

[ehnnui]

...

Talent.

[in bed, in battle, in strategy and management. there are many ways to use someone like him.]

[goodknightdaddy]

....

[Normally wouldn't one be happy to be known for that.

Keirean rubs his face, exhaling slowly. He's aware the noble faction gets up to things he despises. He nips that kind of thing in the bud in the emperor's faction but his power doesn't extend as far as he wishes it did.

Kamukura is an adult, but barely. How long he's been used Keirean doesn't want to guess.]

Kamukura.

[ehnnui]

...My lord?

[hesitant. expecting rejection for sure. he knows he's dirty, even though Keirean didn't believe it way back when. but the years have only stained him further and further.]

[goodknightdaddy]

Come here.

[ehnnui]

[...he rolls onto his back and sits up, not quite willing to make eye contact.]

Yes, my lord.

[goodknightdaddy]

[He sighs and reaches out, putting a hand on top of Kamukura's head. Pat pat.]

[ehnnui]

[oh




he's sprung a leak.]

[goodknightdaddy]

[He... he tugs Kamukura against his chest, still stroking his hair. ]

If you don't want to talk you don't have to.

[ehnnui]

[miserably]

I didn't want you to know...

But I couldn't let you feel guilty for something I started.

[goodknightdaddy]

...

It's all right.

[He won't ask more. But he will investigate Kamukura's circumstances and clean up the scum involved later on.]

[ehnnui]

[he snuggles in :(]

[goodknightdaddy]

[Hairpets.]

Let's go back to sleep.

[ehnnui]

... Together?

[carefully]

[goodknightdaddy]

If you wish.