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[ehnnui]

I... don't wish to disappoint you. But if you say it is all right, I will have to accept that it is.

[goodknightdaddy]

...You don't wish to disappoint me?

[That's hardly what he expected to hear.]

[ehnnui]

I don't.

[with an air of feverish insistence, not explanation.]

[goodknightdaddy]

...Why?

[ehnnui]

You're good.

[goodknightdaddy]

[He just, looks confused. The touches Kamukura's head again in concern.]

And you worry I'll be disappointed by you?

[ehnnui]

[soooo feverish]

I don't want to disappoint you... I don't want to be your enemy. I won't be. No matter what.

[goodknightdaddy]

[Worrying.

But the words... he has no reason to, but he believes them. It'd take a truly amazing actor to pull off such sincerity while this sick. But he's also old enough to know that life doesn't always go how you plan. Kamukura may not plan to be his enemy now but circumstances may force him in the future.

Still, he believes in the sincerity of Kamukura's wishes at least. And gently pats his head.]

All right. To be honest, I don't want to be your enemy either.

I know little about you. Or why you dread my disappointment. But the person you should be hoping never to disappoint is yourself. Live to your own standards, minimize your own regrets. And I should say this as well, have more regard for your well being.

[ehnnui]

[he shakes his head, but also kind of headbutts into the pat? it's a confused motion.]

It's better... if I do things this way. Focusing on- what's important.

[like it's not too late to try and avoid shamelessly admitting that he's just SO focused on kierean.]

[goodknightdaddy]

What is important to you?

[ehnnui]

[how the fuck is he supposed to answer that

ssssilence?]

[goodknightdaddy]

[When the silence stretches for a while Keirean coughs lightly.]

I apologize, that was perhaps prying.

[ehnnui]

Yes, but...

I don't want to put you off, mostly.

[goodknightdaddy]

[??]

Is it that strange?

[ehnnui]

...

It's you.

[goodknightdaddy]

....




What?

[His face is blank because what]

[ehnnui]

[welp it's over]

As I said.

[goodknightdaddy]

[This very hot older man doesn't look repulsed but there is a line between his brows in just sheer confusion.]

Why do I matter so much to you?

[ehnnui]

...That one I can't explain.

[goodknightdaddy]

[He still doesn't get that the feelings are romantic. But he doesn't think Kamukura is lying to flatter him or anything. He looks too miserable, even if that answer is so... suspicious.]

Am... I perhaps you reason you've become a knight?

[ehnnui]

You are.

[goodknightdaddy]

I see... then I'm glad.

[ehnnui]

...I know. That it's probably creepy.

[goodknightdaddy]

Why should it be creepy?

[ehnnui]

It... isn't as though you know me, right?